Friday 13 and Valentine's day

Have a bit of a backlog of things to say. I've been mad-busy recently trying to cram for an exam I had on Friday 13.

Good thing I'm not superstitious. Going into an exam feeling pretty stupid, underprepared, on Friday 13 having had a pretty bad week might make one think that one was going to fail... we'll have to wait and see what the results say. The only plus point is that everyone seemed to leave the exam saying how difficult it was. It did teach me I do need to learn drug names better and not just drug classes. Also need to know contra-indications to prescription better.

Valentine's day went pretty much as expected. I sent out one card - bet you can't guess who to. As normal I didn't receive one - but then again, I've never received one in anger; the only time I've ever received one was from my ex while we were going out. Not a surprise. I spent Valentine's evening at an anti-Valentine's day party at the wonderful one's flat. Chocolate fondue, enough to give all present a bad case of diabetes. Quite a girl heavy evening. Though sadly not in the way that would be optimal ;)

Was quite good fun anyway. Am meant to be practicing for my practical clinical examination tomorrow, but can't get motivated for it. Specially as it's a mock and I feel drained from the work I did for the written exam on Friday. Instead I'm going to see my folks before my mum goes back to HK this week. A better use of my time methinks.

To all you out there, whether or not you had a loved one to share Feb 14 with, love to you all!

AcidCat

St. Valentine's Day Massacre

I'm finally getting used to working late...

Valentine's Day is pretty depressing. Thanks to anti-depressants and some very good friends and wonderful family, it didn't hit me very hard, but anytime I thought about it, it's pretty miserable.

For those of you lucky enough to be in a relationship, if you're in the early throes where all is happy and loved up, Valentine's day is fun, but barely an improvement. All days are great, and romantic.

For those of you in a relationship, the stress of making it a special day and getting a really lovely gift and card makes it a particularly unromantic day. Not ideal.

For those of us who are alone, Valentine's day is really not a very happy day. It serves to remind you how incomplete you are on your own. All the happy couples you see together make you feel more alone. It's the day of unrequited love, where you dare to whisper anonymously to your beloved one that you wish to be part of their life: where if you don't receive a Valentine, you wonder if you're destined to spend the rest of your life alone, or with someone who isn't right. You may slide through life without a soul mate. Or it may remind you of the person who you think was your soul mate and escaped.

So a pox on Valentine's day. Use this day to remember your friends and other loved ones. And just appreciate your partner if you're lucky enough to be with one. Forgive their little mistakes, if they truly love you, the colour or type of the flowers really doesn't matter.

So, a platonic love to you all. Especially those friends of you who helped me, doubly especially my friends on Valentines day (this includes you, my friends who texted me to ask if I wanted to do stuff this weekend).

Be happy all,

Love
AcidCat

PS. Here are two songs dedicated to you all (I've come over all disc-jockey phone-in).

To all you singletons out there, you're not alone. We're alone together, so we're not truly alone (honest).

I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor

First I was afraid, I was petrified.
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.
But I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on

And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
With that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Go on now go.
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
Not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high

And you see me
Somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
Still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free
Now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me

Go on now go.
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die

Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And I'll survive
I will survive

Rise by Gabrielle

I know that it's over.
That I can't believe we're through.
They say that time's a healer.
And I'm better without you.

It's gonna take time I know,
But I'll get over you.

Look in my life.
Look in my heart.
I have seen them fall apart.
Now I'm ready to rise again.
Just look in my hopes.
Look at my dreams
Building bridges from these scenes.
Now, I'm ready to rise again.

Caught up in my thinking.
Like a prisoner in my mind.
You pose so many questions.
But, the truth was hard to find.

I better think twice I know
that I'll get over you.

Look in my life.
Look in my heart.
I have seen them fall apart.
Now I'm ready to rise again.
Just look in my hopes.
Look in my dreams
Building bridges from these scenes.
Now, I'm ready to rise again.

Much time has passed between us.
Do you still think of me at all?
My world of broken promises.
Now, you won't catch me when I fall.

Look in my life.
Look in my heart.
I have seen them fall apart.
Now I'm ready to rise again.
Just look in my hopes.
Look at my dreams
Building bridges from these scenes.
Now, I'm ready to rise again.

I'm going to make it all right.
Yes, I'm going to rise, gonna make it all right.
I'm going to be who I want to be yeah baby.
Yeah. Yeah.
I'm going to make it all right.
I'm going to make it all right.
I'm going to make it all right.
Yeah.
I'm going to make it all right.