Happy new year

Hi everyone.

Last post of 2007.

I made it through alive.

I'm having a quiet evening in. Subjecting my long-suffering parents and kind brother with my presence.

To all of you who are not having a riotous new year party, I'm thinking of you.

Happy new year to everyone. Let's hope 2008 is better for everyone.

Love
AcidCat

Merry Xmas

Dear everyone.

Merry Xmas to you all.

Christmas. Overhyped. Expensive. Stressful. Boring. Depressing.

However, at christmas time, it's a time for family. A time for thinking of friends and the less material things. A chance for relaxation and boredom. A chance to stop and take stock of life and thinking about philosophy and the meaning of it all.

I do like it. Sod gifts. Be with people you love. Use it as a chance to tell people what they mean to you.

Good luck one and all with the Xmas period.

Love
AcidCat

Aargh!

Can't think.

Too many short thoughts.

• My boss is amazing. He spent (at a guess) around £200 on drinks for our group Xmas dinner.
• Some of my group are ungrateful bastards who complained that he didn't pay for dinner on top of that! He's not earning huge amounts either. He's one of the nicest, most interesting, fascinating, cool, intelligent, patient people in the universe and he's underappreciated.
  
• The group has moved on so quickly. I'm an outsider again. Another place I don't fit in.
• The friends I had in the group are still wonderful. One of them (Cap'n A) bought me a Secret Santa gift even though I wasn't in on it (as I was a last minute invite) so I wouldn't be left out.
  
• My family are awesome.
• Depression is really terrible. Mornings are like moving through treacle whilst being stabbed in the heart.
  
• Can't wait for my GP appointment tomorrow. I'm hoping that it'll all be alright in the end.
• I feel like I'm falling. I'm grabbing and scrabbling for a handhold, grasping at branches and straws, but each gives way from under me, not slowing my descent. When will some one catch me?

AcidCat

First interview

Had first med interview at QMB today. I turned up hideously early and ended up waiting around for ages.

Actual interview went well. The questions on the video consultation with the GP I think I noticed the things I was meant to. The general doctor questions went well too. The work experience section is my weakest so that went about as well as could be hoped.

I'm particularly pleased at how well that went bearing in mind I've been suffering from horrible depression for over a week now, and yesterday had the worst allergic reaction to some prawns where I got an all-over rash, diarrhoea, nausea and headache so wasn't the most ideal preparation. Coupled with the insomnia and all round things weren't ideal.

Things were helped by the wonderful support of my mum who's been looking after me for my current low and my lovely sister who came back to give me a pre-interview pep-talk and took me for dinner afterwards. I also met a fab fellow applicant on the tour afterwards, who was really lovely.

AcidCat

Rain down, rain down, come on rain down on me.

Depressed again.

Back on Prozac for the past 3 days. Not helping.

Feel like crying but I can't.

Stressed.

Can't work.

Busy.

Need to get this thesis done.

Got med school interviews, but don't know whether I should try and read medicine or not any more.

Don't know if that's just the depression talking, or reality.

Hate being miserable.

God I hate life.

AcidCat